My depression..

It’s not unusual for people to experience “the blues” or feel “down in the dumps” occasionally. You’ve all heard it or maybe you know someone suffering from depression. You may know what you think it is or you just don’t care.  If you don’t suffer from it you really don’t know a thing about it, AT ALL!! Depression affects an estimated one in every fifteen adults (6.7 %) in any given year. One in six (16.6%) will experience some sort of depression in their lifetime. If you don’t have a mental illness let me tell you about my depression in my own words.

What is depression? Well, depression is a common and very serious mental illness that can be a negative affect on how you think about yourself or how you act in general. My depression causes random feelings of sadness, loss of interest in people or activities I once enjoyed. It can lead to a variety if emotional and physical problems. My depression at times keeps me awake till 3 or 4 sometimes later at night. sometimes I have to work at 9 am so I run off basically no sleep. I constantly feel like I want to die or just run away just so ill be happy again and everyone else will be happy again. I constantly think of the what ifs or I just don’t think at all. I’m just here  but also not here. I feel everyday that I will never be enough for anyone. I literally force myself to get up in the morning, to eat, to go out in public and just be around people in general. I literally feel like I’m drowning but not even around water. I hear people talking to me or see people around me but I feel so lost and alone. It’s very confusing but yet I understand it myself. weird I know.  I try everyday to smile, laugh and be happy go lucky but its hard. I have this never ending battle inside my head and it SUCKS!! Guess what though…





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