As I am sitting in bed listening to “I met you when I was 18 playlist by Lauv” i realized that just last year I was with Jason not really miserable just stuck. This Valentines day I thought would be hard knowing I wouldn’t be with Jason again but it is turning out pretty good. a four year relationship can take a while to get over and you may never be over it but am getting stronger day by day. I’ll always have a special place in my heart for him but now my heart is being filled with finding myself more.
Today I worked a few had a pretty rough day, came home found out I locked my engine so new car it is soon. No longer will be driving the big Durango anymore. Woot woot!! 🙂
Today I also was able to spend a few house with Devin. He truly makes my heart happy, we can talk about anything or just lay in bed watching a scary movie or listen to music and just talk. Today he knew I didn’t sleep but maybe 4 hours last night so he laid down with me and played with my hair and let me sleep for a hour or so. He is really the sweetest man I know. Scary to have such strong feelings for someone. He makes me smile when I don’t want to, laugh when I want to cry and just see the good in life and the bad when it’s needed.
Well, I will let you guys go for the night. I’m going to read a bit and try to get some sleep. Have a goodnights sleep and sweet dreams! BBBBBYYYYEEEE
**BBBRRRRPPP BBBRRRPPP** 😀