“Are you tired?” The question I get every day and the answer is the same every day. I am always tired. How is that possible? Well, when you suffer from depression, ‘I’m tired ‘means a permanent state of exhaustion that sleep doesn’t fix. Sleep just isn’t sleep anymore—it’s escape. There are few things more energizing than waking up from a good night’s sleep feeling refreshed and ready to tackle the day. Also, no matter how many hours someone with the overwhelming emotional fatigue that comes with clinical depression sleeps him or she awakes to that stomach-drop feeling of Oh no, I’ve got to get through another full day before I can go to back to bed. No matter what age you are, emotionally you feel as if you are 100-years-old. You drag yourself with leaden feet through daily chores, counting down the hours until you can lie down and shut out the world again.
Depression in my case comes and goes, today has been a bad day, I also forgot to take my meds the last the last few days and because of that I am now all out of whack. I then had an anxiety attack on my way to work I almost just didn’t come; I felt like I was having a heart attack and I couldn’t breathe. Anxiety comes hand in hand with my depression. It sucks I knew after that attack my day was going to be shit. I keep crying or on the verge of crying, my head is hurting, I can’t sit still oar even stay focused. It sucks! I know tomorrow will be a better day and I won’t be so stuck in my head (hopefully).
Well I have to go back to work now. Have a wonderful day guys and gals! 🙂